In my current series of oil paintings, I portray different perspectives of my bed by utilizing a dollhouse-sized replica that I have constructed and documented. My bed has been the home of many turbulent headspaces and past traumas. By working from the model I gain back control, which allows me to navigate and understand my unruly experience. With a muted color palette and varied marks, I create images that act as transportive windows into my past emotional states. Specifically, I zoom in on details like objects, shadows, wrinkles and light and investigate the bed’s absorptive role in my life.
In my body of work I aim to convey the idiosyncratic experiences involved in varied mental states. I think of all the quiet moments in my bed, wrapped in the ambivalent embrace of my bed sheets. Invisible tears, sweat and skin are imprinted here and act as remnants of memories. This is a contradictory space of escape and comfort, an environment that shifts with my emotions. Sometimes it’s neatly made, but most of the time there may be a plate buried underneath forgotten laundry and dirty sheets. My bed seems to have absorbed all of my emotions, yet appears as an unquestioning, innocent staple in the backdrop of my life.
Image: Crumbs. Oil on canvas / 48 x 48 in.